i got tagged by Fiona and Sunny.

your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
:: first, be depressed. move on after. ::

what will your dream wedding be like?
:: different. ::

on your wedding day, what would you like to see?
:: my family and friends; and ofcourse, my husband at the end of the aisle waiting for me. :D ::

are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
:: not confused. curious. ::

what's your ideal lover like?
:: different; mine. ::

if the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
:: be friends instead. ::

is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
:: some people like Sunny [sanTH!!] would know. ;) ::

how do you see yourself in 10 years time?
:: working; married; an adult. ::

who are currently the most important people to you?
:: God; family; ????; friends. :P ::

would you rather be rich and single, married but poor?
:: none. i like the way im living now. ::

what's the first thing you do every morning?
:: open my eyes. ::

would you give all in a relationship?
:: its 'a' right? yes, i would. :) ::

if you fall in love with 2 persons stimultaneously, who would you pick?
:: the one i love most. ::

what type of friends do you like?
:: understanding; does not judge me; always there when i need them. ::

what type of friends do you dislike?
:: indescribable. ::

are you a virgin?
:: what kind of survey is this? ::

have you lied to your parents?
:: yea. ::

what did you lied about?
:: different kind of explanations just to go out. [most of the time] ::

currently, are you having crush on anyone?
:: not crush. :) ::

hint about him / her?
:: i just said it isnt a crush. ::

do you think the guy / girl knows?
:: i dont think. i know. ::

what phrases you usually say when something unexpected happens?
:: alot. not swears though. okay, just at times. =x ::

what annoys you the most?
:: parents scolding [when i have explanations and they wouldnt listen]; people that keeps talking and talking and talking and....; loads more. ::

what is your current obsession?
:: Stephenie Meyers' Twilight Saga novels.♥ ::

who do you short text the most these days?
:: no one. ::

who do you miss alot now?
:: who do u think i miss? ;D ::

which secondary school friends do you miss the most right now?
:: JHJM. when she was before, not now. ::

who do you idolise now?
:: God is the only one i worship. ::

best girl friends?
:: Janice and some people in youth. ::

best boy friends?
:: Joshua; Nigel; some people in youth. ::

biggest fear?
:: im claustrophobic; i hate crossing the bridge [that u can ask Sunny]; i hate cuts. ::

favourite hang out place?
:: my HOMES. got food. ::

if you were to go out with a groups of friends, who would you choose?
:: people that im comfortable with. ::

made any new friends recently?
:: i forgot her name. xD ::

what kind of mood are you in most of the time?
:: normal. ::

do you like the person who tagged you?
:: who dont love humans? ::

i tag:
joshua?
; apple?


yea.. i know i tagged little people. its cause theyve already been tagged. :( so shad. nothing to talk about today. boredness. :(

cant wait til saturday.. :)

JaMie~*

i'm not a girl, not yet a woman.

i dont think im going to school at all this week. xD mwahahaha!! [have fun in school u guys!] its the same anyway. bored at home and definitely bored in school, but excluding the friends part at home. hehe.. honestly, i just woke up. xD as i said, im a deep sleeper. haha..

to fill my time [again] im reading Twilight [again] just incase i missed out any important events. [while waiting for Apple's permission for lending me her New Moon] :D Apple's a very kind girl. yea and she borrow her friends books, right right?? xD im off to eat my brunch. here are some pictures, enjoy. [its not much but, yeaa..]

im not a girl, not yet a woman.
[it means im still young. :P]

i l-o-v-e LOVE this picture!
"i iz having a hanky on my head"

tummy time! [on my sisters bed]
he had fun fun fun. :)
i had fun taking pictures. hehe.

i miss you..

twilight.

aaaaaaaaaaahhh!!! i finished a 500+ pages book in two days!! cant believe i actually finished it. title is Twilight, written by Stephanie Meyer. the story is amazingly.. touching.. i dont know how to describe the whole story. :( read la u. xD part of it was kind of hard to understand, thanks to my limited knowledge on words. xD yeaa.. i didnt take the initiative to look it up on the dictionary. the story was like a drug. couldnt move an inch nor delaying my reading and imagination. so yeaa.. lazy. hehe..

well since i finished it in two days, *sighs* i shall buy the next sequel! [whatever that means. i think it means the next chapter or series. haha.] New Moon. but..... the books kind of expensive........ :( *weeps* anyone interested to buy the last sequel for me on Christmas?? haha.. note that i said last sequel though. cause i might buy the next after New Moon. xD told u its a drug. i didnt think i would still be interested in reading after so many months, drowned in school books. hehe..

Twilights about a girl getting used to a new place, a new school, where she met an amazingly attractive boy. unfortunately/fortunately, he was a vampire. so.. yea, it ends here. xD im really bad at telling stories. dont blame me. :P i think my english improved by a little.. well? dont expect 2 days of reading a 500+ pages book will mold me into a "pro-english teacher". or something.. xD im too much of a malaysian. saddening. :( oh well! :D

miah says the cover of the book is creepy. i didnt think so at first. i guess he was right. haha.. its a picture of two very pale hands holding a bright red apple, plus a very black background. instead of saying,"i have cookies.." in movies where usually bad guys would say it.. its, "i have an apple..". xDDD!!! IM SO RIDICULOUSLY SILLY. im gonna upload the picture of the book next time. didnt have the time to take picture of it. :P its getting late, and i just showered. hehe.. couldnt imagine how dirty i was aye? :P if you're a clean freak, i advice u too stay as far as u can. away from me. haha! :D

oh, and cuzzie.. no he didnt tell me. :)


dadi, i miss u..




JaMie~*

aww..

no one comment. :( so sad..

i didnt go to school, AGAIN! haha! i lied again. whoops. xD ive really got nothing to do at home, besides watching tv and playing computer. my mum watches her AFC, so i cant really watch my cartoons. xD! yes, i watch cartoons, im still young. be envious. :P so i guess the only thing i can do is play computer. but playing too much gives me a serious migrain, like now. :( so... to past my time, i found my book i bought quite long ago, i havent read yet. yea..

yay! brother is back!! sims, sims, sims!!!! mwahahaha! i shall play tomorrow. :D many problems is starting to build up. :( not with me, but between my friends and their friends. i hope everything will end up fine. :( my dolphin and my cuzzie not going well. :( dont like that buaaa.. holidays arent holidays if friends are fighting. i have reasons to be concern. :) treasure your friendship. they dont come often, true friends that is. :D tell them how u feel to get things straight. it solves things too. :)

im going to eat now. hungry. :)
JaMie~*

: ( :

i can't install The Sims. :( heeellpp!! i think it's cause i dont have the original The Sims cd. haha! xD okay, now i know.

i didnt go to school today, hehe.. going tomorrow. for real this time. haha, suppose to go today cause they had the rehearsal for Hari Pengiktirafan, which is tomorrow. i guess i need briefing from Karen and Joshua. haha.. i woke up at 2pm this afternoon. hehe.. deep sleeper.

my nephew's here. he keeps laughing. hes only 3 months old. :) he can shout, laugh, giggle and ofcourse make noise. haha.. hes the joy in my life. :) he can always make me smile when im down in the dumps. i love you. :D my babeh. he wont laugh if u record his voice or take picture of him. he knows. 0.0 naughty boy. hes watching tv again, just woke up. Higglytown Heroes. xD he laughs at the not funny scenes. dont know why. 0.o i guess their faces are funny to him. haha, naughty. he shouting now, cute boyyy. here's some pictures of him. enjoy. :D

old photo. :)
i just took this half an hour ago. hes was watching tv.

found this. very nice. :)

IM FREE

hehe, sorry.. didnt update. don't think i abandoned my blog woh! i was at my sisters house since friday til tuesday. her comp so cacat. got colourful dots at her comp screen. very, very busted. oh, and im, ahem.. FREEEEEEE!! spm.. :( haha.. PMR was, alrite. :) i didn't think it would end so fast. it's already wednesday oh. wooh. 0.0 it feels like it didn't happen at all. i hope spm is like that. xD ohyeaa.. God bless to all spm students. :) wish u all the best!

i had fun on friday. :) i threw all my books. nyehhhh. :D best feeling ever. mwahahaha! i stuffed it into a black dustbin til it couldnt fit no more. >=) hmm, apparently, going back to school is no fun. :( the caunselor teachers organised some activities for us. boringg.. many things going on in the hall. i, part of the PA system team thingy, have to go. :( 3 weeks oh.. they're gonna bring us to a penjara. visit the prisoners. hmMMm.. yeaa, and things. i wasnt listening. xD planned to not go school tomorrow oh.. *cries*

oh, and wendy.. i tried putting a chatbox. i even asked miah. somethings wrong. when i have MORE time, i will try to put. again. :D

seeeeeeee.. books! bye bye. :D *waves*

it felt very satisfying throwing the books, so... i threw more! *waves again*

it's coming to an end.

hehe.. i'm not suppose to blog now, but since my Kemahiran Hidup paper ended at 9.45 am, couldnt help but to blog. :D all i have left is Geography tomorrow. *grin* OHyeaaa.. i can't wait! :D the past few days was.. calm. :D i don't think i did fine. i know i did great. :) no matter what grades i get, i know i did my best. so.. people who isn't me, don't ask nor tell me i didn't to my best, cause i know i did.

i like that they always pray for us in the hall, every morning. it feels nice. it's like all the teacher are supporting us. :) *thank you* i was in Room 3 [5 Perkasa], HA012K081. :D i didn't feel tense nor did i panicked, cause i didn't want to. i get tense when my friends talk/ask/discuss about the questions. it makes me sad and destroys my mood to know if the answer i chose was incorrect. :) oh, oh! and i didn't forget to bring my KAD PENGENALAN. i'm so proud of myself. :D *pats self* it actually feels nice to have PMR. xD ::what am i SAYING?!::

my mum is still sleeping. i'm hungry. :( i haven't change my clothes nor wash up. xD ran to the computer when i saw it on. hee.. :D

was blogging in blogspot the wrong choice? i see little comment-ers. :(

Geography.

JaMie~*

still striving through. :)

taken on 13th October 2008. [first day of PMR]
studying Science. had a free time. haha.. :)
my first picture in blogspot. :D

it's coming! o.o

it's coming it's coming!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!




PMR IS COMING!! it's on monday.. OMG, ITS ON MONDAY!!! *screams*


sorry i didn't go youth today. i just wanna be really, REALLY prepared. *eek* when i'm studying i feel fine, but when i think about how much time i have left, it gives me the shivers. i know u guys say it's easy and all, but there is no reason for me to not be scared. :(
i'm scared i'll get sick.
i'm scared i'll forget to bring along my KAD PENGENALAN. [it happened in my dream and it felt terrible when i woke up]
i'm scared that i'll panic and can't answer the rest of the questions.
i'm scared i forget to bring my cal and my other tools for my papers.
i'm just scared.

the reason why i have all these fears is cause my dad would kill me either cause: i get bad grades or the grades he didn't expect me to get; i did a silly mistake and cause me to lose a few marks.
i wanna achieve very, very badly cause: it's my desire; i wanna prove to my brother that i'm no lazy girl and i can get better than what he got, i can achieve things just like him. [he got 6a's and a b]

oh, and sorry baron. :P i found out that blogspot is faster. xanga very lag. the loading is so slow, sometimes it even failed to load. got tired of it. :D sorry for any inconvenience everyone. :)


second post, yay. :D
JaMie~*

My thoughts, part 1. [humans' thoughts aren't limited]

Hi. New blog. :) So hard to make.. no interested to decorate so much since people only read your posts. Yesh, my xanga account is abandoned. :) bye bye. So here's my new posts, in a new blog. :) yay.


i feel very uneasy these few days. it feels like everything is not going right like it suppose to be. my expressions and emotions are messed up. i feel alright and happy, but i don't smile often and always quiet. when my friends asks whats wrong, i don't know how and what to answer, cause i don't know either. possibilities:
i AM sad, but i try to be happy.
; my surroundings are feeling different. e.g. friends. [they are more ignorant than usual]
; not sleeping well.
; not sleeping well means i'm tired.
; all the worries and stress cause PMR is around the corner. [i know its easy. i CAN worry, can't i?]
; personal stuff i live with everyday.
; no reason.

i feel random+emotion-less. i can frown, but not sad. i can laugh, but not happy. i'm being very timid, very.. me. not us, not we, but me. i'm clueless why. i sometimes wonder, is there something wrong with me? mentally. if a question has been asked for me to answer, my brain will stop for a split second and, my answer will be, "i don't know." though i know the answer. its either a habit or it's just, me. i sometimes feel i do things for people and at the same time, i'm not.

help.

they say when you're sad, it's good to cry to reduce the pain. i find it, untrue. it makes me feel worse. it makes me think more unhappy, past events, which cause me to cry more. i realised that i keep grudges. big grudges, not small ones. [big-matter grudges] reasonable ones. :(


my first post ever.
JaMie~*