Jamie Lee: June 2009

if w e were a movie,
you'd be the right guy,
then i'd be your best friend,
you'd fall in love with,
in the end we'd be laughing,
watching the sunset fade to black,
show the name,
sing the h a p p y song.
/ Miley Cyrus.

xanga is manga.

i visited my xanga last night. so many came flooding back. :) it was funny reading them back because the person who wrote them, seemed like it wasnt me. like some stranger who was what? form 1? and the posts goes on til i was form 2. oh! and u cant forget those comments. ahh.. i miss my xanga. :( EVEN THOUGH, its loading is daarn slow.

there were a few tags from the people who does not do tags anymore. example, DEREK YONG QUO TUNG. haha. he used to tag me quite frequently, i think. whatever la! he did, FULL STOP. and i think the way i blogged last time was, i dont know, fun? i noticed that my blogger blogging style became very, sarcastic and formal. xanga was like telling a story as if im talking.

aww man. I MISS MY XANGAAAAA. okay, i know. my xanga was ~~pink~~, but who cares about colors anyway? :P i loved those times where i was so excited to check my blog and see alot of comments in my comment box. whether im in an upside down condition, there's always those people who support me, even though xanga's loading was slow (still is. :/). i can still recall.. Daniel, Derek, Apple, Wendy, Baron Hen, SamKu (i told her to get a blog at that time, she didnt. she started only this year. delay. blah. :P), Max, Miah, David Chio, Kavita, Olivia Vun, Cyrus, Ivy Lo.. so many!!

also, i remember my xanga posts were emo. most of them laaah. every single detail happened, i typed them there. bad times, good times, everything. and i was much more that little girl faithful to God. so much has changed. so much of me changed. i cant believe things revolutionise so quickly. seriously man, i miss those moments. :/

should i double blog posts? hmm.. click here for my xangaaaaa. :D

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back to emotional rants and changes. :/ okay, the tape worm is starting to eat me alive now. doesnt matter. there's no good or bad to this. to me, not you. its all coming back, again. i can feel the heavy impact booming out from its source and hitting me over and over again. you know in your dreams where you cant just run fast enough from some urgly gurgly beast when in reality you know you can run faster than that? suck to feel that yea? thats what im feeling now, but 100 times worse. :/

please make it go awaayy.. maybe things should have stayed like how it was before. but now, its too late. because im drugged. im addicted. im a fool. it would be impossible to turn back time and prevent it from happening. i rather not want it. i rather not have it. please take it backk.. :(

remove the pain. remove the memories. remove, everything.

JaMie~*

breathe.

mind the vulgarity.

okay, emo-ness is returning from its course. i dont like it. :( the feelings similar, yet somehow different. i sense fear. what i ~~dislike~~hate about being drowned by depression is the constant suffer it gives. like being burnt over and over where the skin heals fast to be burnt again. its never ending and its hard to stop. it can stop, but some people prefer it should stay, subconsciously or otherwise.

its like a tape worm in our body. slowly draining our lives bit by bit. making us feel the hurt and suffer before our death. we should cast away all parasites from affecting our emotions because theyre just a waste of our lives. hm :/ its not that im not strong. i feel fine actually. hormones? :(

a few people are being emotional these past few days. one thing i can say:
dont let your emotions control you, because one day you might find it useless and a shame to have contained those unnecessary feelings in your life.

i feel so frustrated by some things and by some people. i mean, seriously, get a life. :/ or at least get it back. it annoys me to know that some people just cant get a grip and face things just the way they are. well, congrats to you for letting the satan win over your mind. you asked for help. i want to help and am helping, but to me, you need not the help after all. cause youre not listening. youre missing out on the greatness in life by substituting all your useless rants and shits.

Jamie, you can get through this.

metro.

yesterday Apple, Oscar, David & i went to Metro Pool after ASCF. it was aweshuumm!! Apple & Oscar, David & i teamed up. it was really fun la. the Oscar-lift-his-leg-up thing was funny, haha. xD he kept 'flying' the ball. it was hilarious. xD oh! and i didnt know the place was so.. cina. all the songs played was Chineseee. very very odd, haha. OH OH, David & i won!! :D

i didnt go school today. :P tired bahhhh. have not been sleeping well these few days. i get exhausted easily, oh no. :( i need to jogggg!!

not sick anymore. :) whens school going to close? :D :D

oh, something bad happened just now during yam cha. i was & still sad. the bells on my phone broke. :( well, the bells are fine actually. the hook broke to be exact. so sad. :( sigghh.. someone buy a hook for me? :D

my happiness level is dropping, again. woke up crying this morning (yes, morning. i woke at 11:30am). i used to talk about lame stuff or some sick joke to temporary keep me happy, which is quite long, but its wearing off now. :( i get weaker & weaker each dayy. whyyyy.. i dont waaant. T.T nooo.. i think i need my Steffi & Karen.

its always the first that keeps me dreaming.

Steffi gave a big chocolate chip cookie today. boo you. :P
i love you babe!

JaMie~*

do the egyptian crab.

E1 geng! E1 gengg! :D

yeahhh, the news has been spreading about Michael Jackson. the radio played his songs the WHOLE day. well, besides the chinese & malay frequency. why did he died anyway? some people said skin cancer, but the news said something about heart attack. something about his cartilage muscle thing tighten bla bla bla. i know several people are sad cause he died. i feel nothing, haha. i mean, its not that i know him personally. BUT, he IS human so hm :/ rest in peace. i dont know what to say really. he converted into a Muslim :/

LIXIAN DONT SAYANG ME ANYMORE. T.T
okay bah okay. i'll stop poking your butt. comprende? :D

ah!! ENGLISH. SUMMARY. SOPHIA. IS. GONNA. KILL. MEH.

just because it is, it doesn't mean it's how it should be.

JaMie~*

I NEED MY HOUSE OF NIGHT SERIES.

wo men shi jia ren. <3

im currently loving the color bronze. :D

should i go for class on Saturdaaayyy? Lixian & Karen wont be present. one skip school, the other going to KL. :/ macam macam oh. im starting to get reaaaally lazy. i even take like, 5 minutes?, sitting on my bed, deciding or just get my butt off the bed and get ready for school. ugghh.

OH and, I HATED PJK TODAY. i was so excited about it, but it disappointed me. ran 2 USELESS rounds on the field, stretched for NOTHING because we didnt BLOODY DO ANYTHING AFTER THAT. Tanisa is a bore.

Biology was rather good today, even with the trainee teacher. she spoke more malay than English. atleast she's friendly. fair enough.

today was fun! i had a great time harassing Lixian's ass. HAHAHAHA. it attracts me. xD she was scared and running away from me half of the day. hahahahaha! 'sides that, Olivia & i talked about tiangs. u know, poles? we were sorta talking about hugging the poles because its cold most of the time, but when the sun is up it'll burn us. xD when its raining cats and dogs, we can hug the pole to warm it upp. xD no doubt it'll attract us, with all the 'electricity' it have. hahahaha. sorry it doesnt really say LAUGH-OUT-LOUD here, but believe me, it was a blast when we were talking about it in class. :D

Lord, You found me in the darkness & You tore it into light.

over & out.

JaMie~*

i want i waaaaaantt!!

i had TWO ponytails! :D

i went window shopping that day in City Mall and i came across a very very VERY beautiful jacket (im not telling you which shop!). its so so so gorgeous. i regretted that i only brought rm10 out. nooo. T.T and so i thought, since MY birthday is cominggg (finally!), someone kindly buy it for me? :D aww come on. you love me dont 'cha? i'll be good. :D

today felt awkward. keep running into stupidity, awkwardness and silliness. its so weird, yet.. fun? i dont know. the feelings weird. ughhh. sort of terrible too. i dont know. i like it, but i dont enjoy it. :(

crush squirt
oh, intro. offspring, Jellyman. Jellyman, offspring.
jellieee?? sweeeet~
totaally.
Happy Birthday Papa. :]

no more being an eye fountain.

JaMie~*

healthy as my phone battery.

thank you Mitran. and Apple for taking it. haha. :)

oh pish posh. H1N1? no way my strong body can get it. :P anyway, i went to the doctor yesterday.

doctor my thoughts me (we spoke in Chinese)

i have flu, but its mucus is watery. slighty green...(continue saying with what i was having)
*scribble scribble*
and uhm, ya.
*check if i have fever and stethoscope to check my breathing*
*breathes in and out*
okay. did you went up on an airplane?
WHAATT?? oh, erm, no.
*scribble scribble*

sort of zha dao la. but, its his job anyway. my mum and i laughed after we left the clinic. haha. cruel isnt she. xD i didnt go cell group though. :( my whole body was sore and my head was banging. rested at home instead. but i did went youth. it was, of course, aweshummm. :D

my phone is having some button problems. :( the down and left button are not working really well. grrh.. im sensing new phone coming. hahaha. :D report card day is coming. hope my brother is not going on any company trip. i dont want my dad to take my report card. >< style="font-weight: bold;" size="4">LIXIAN IS BAAACCKKK!! yum yum, my black chocolate from UK. ooh la la~ oh and i noticed a few friends are in emo moods these few days. for whatever had or is happening, i believe theres a purpose to it, and God knows our limit. :) oh and another thing, to my dad and my daddy God,
Happy Father's Day.

my heart's playing its symphony.

JaMie~*

maybe not so farni after all

fever, which is usually high, but unlike seasonal flu, is sometimes absent *check*
cough
runny nose or stuffy nose *check*
sore throat *check*
body aches *check*
headache *check*
chills
fatigue or tiredness, which can be extreme *check*
diarrhea and vomiting, sometimes, but more commonly seen than with seasonal flu

ohmygoshh. :(

Teacher's Day!

i noticed all my post all full with pictures and a minute amount of words. haha. pictures represent a million words anyway. kena kau. xD

waaaheeee!! its Teacher's Day today. :D :D so syok this. i was the button-pusher-for-curtain, Joshua was the sound stuffs, Karen the DJ. :D the others was downstairs: Pricilla, Daphne, Ernesha, David, Moses & Gianni. i know my job seems really easy. YOU'RE WRONG MAN. stress gilaaa.

*perfomance ends*
CLOSE THE CURTAIN!! CURTAIN CURTAAIN CURTAAIIINNN!!!!
*panicked* or
*performance starts*
OPEN THE CURTAINNN!!! OPEEENNN!!!

thank God its over now, haha. everyone did a great job. thanks you guys. :)

oh oh!!
CIKGU ADRIAN IS 2009'S MR. HOLLYWOOD.
WOOOHOOOOOOO!!!!

pictures taken in Pricilla & Karen's cam.
ah, overall was aweshumm. :) our seranta family may not be growing in number, but the bonds between us is getting stronger and closer. :) all my sayaaanngss. <3

i didnt take much picture though. since i had stay up and deal with the curtain thing. just pretend to enjoy LAAHH.

Pricilla & Daphne with the Tap Tap game.
addictive. =3

the Bollywood dancers.
JAI HO!

Nigel Chin & band. :)

Joanna & cikgu HARDIZAN. woohooo!!

the dont-know-how-many-teachers-in-all-saints singing.

students.

Daphne; Ernesha; David; Moses.

itu Pricilla.

anyway, im still sickk. :( Oscar asked me to go see a doctor. swine flu konon.
symptoms of swine flu infections can include:

fever, which is usually high, but unlike seasonal flu, is sometimes absent *check*
cough
runny nose or stuffy nose *check*
sore throat *check*
body aches *check*
headache
chills
fatigue or tiredness, which can be extreme
diarrhea and vomiting, sometimes, but more commonly seen than with seasonal flu

jangan harap lah!

your beautiful face vanished from my sight. please come back.

JaMie~*

oh prommm..

stop, drop & roll.

mMMm pudding!

i changed my blog song again: Hillsong United // Soon. Dedicating it to Wendy. :) sorry no lyrics. turn up the volume. :)

anyway, i passed all subjects except Moral & History, ofcourse. :D lala. atleast my Bm passed, im happy. bazaar is coming!! cant wait to see the big crowds walking through the school gate with coupons, coupons & coupons! the chaos, heat & excitement! weehee.. :D

having sore throat & flu now. i sense a cough & fever are dropping by to visit too. ah, and pimples. MAN, they ~~LOVE~~ me. ugh.

oh and tommorow is Teacher's Day! another day for us Seranta to play, bond & camwhore! :P lalalala... cant waaaait. =3

ugly fugly gurgly murgly hurgly durgly truth

JaMie~*

oh gosh,
SO. ADORABLE.

say goodbye.

oh boy, school is at the peak. :( oh hurra, aural and exam papers returned. well, atleast there's gonna rehearsals for Teacher's Day. spend time with my Seranta babes again. :D yeah, that makes me happy. oh! and getting my dried mango from Oliviaaaa. weehee.. fair enough. :)

been real lazy lately. computer, telly, computer, telly. sadly, i didnt get fat. :( i got taller and heavier, not fat. ah yash! DANIEL@da niu IS BAAAACCCKKK!!!! :D wahhheeee.. :D Vincent is back too. him & i teamed up in badminton against Apple & Oscar. they won. :( and my arm still hurts. but, it was an awesome match. :)

OH YA!! big BIG applause to the people to participated in UI Day!! hurra! we got first! it's all you guys that made it happen. :) and ofcourse, claps to the emcee, Sunny & Miah. all you people are aweshum!!

hmm, yeaa. nothing else to say. haha. pictures will tell.

i wanted to buy these, but.. :(

Edwina & i played rafting. xD

and cycling. :P

when you see pavements like these,

colorful kites,

and more pavements,

stuffs like these,

a big mushroom that lights up,

and wood-ie people,

you know you're in Chinatown. xD

Wagamama.

oh *drools*

spent my days with choco balls.

i'd make a smile.

JaMie~*

i love this picture. :D

look at the sky. it's crying for me.

JaMie~*

i found a tag. im bored.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: ribena.
2. Last phone call: dad.
3. Last text message: Sunny.
4. Last song you listened to: The Show by Lenka.
5. Last time you cried: 3 days ago.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: nope.
7. Been cheated on: nope.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope.
9. Lost someone special: my grandpa.
10. Been depressed: countless times.
11. Been drunk and threw up: nope, tipsy-ed

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. apple green.
13. grey.
14. rosy red.

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yash. in school & in church.
16. Fallen out of love: gua.
17. Laughed until you cried: sometimes.
18. Met someone who changed you: yash. God did.
19. Found out who your true friends were: i have none for the moment.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: gua.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: mmhm.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: most of them.
23. How many kids do you want?: 3 gua.
24. Do you have any pets: my Cabbage is with Steffi now.
25. Do you want to change your name: Jamie is fine. i think.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: steamboat at Bukit Padang.
27. What time did you wake up today: 1.45pm.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: blow dry my hair. i showered late.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: a darn car license & a car.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: an hour ago. she went to bed.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: none i guess.
32. What are you listening to right now : the fan swooshing.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: ye....no.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: the heat.
35. Most visited webpage: blogger & marapets.
36. Whats your real name: Jamie Lee Yi Fei.
37. Nicknames: Jemeh, Jimeh, Jah-mee, Mie.
38. Relationship Status: single, but unavailable.
39. Zodiac sign: cancer.
40. Male or female?: female.
41. Primary School?: SRK St Agnes.
42. Secondary School?: SM All Saints.
43. High school/college?: lek bah lek.
44. Hair colour: really dark brown.
45. Long or short: long.
46. Height: 5'7 i think.
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: mmhm.
48: What do you like about yourself?: my teeth.
49. Piercings: yash. my ears.
50. Tattoos: nope.
51. Righty or lefty: righto.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: nope.
53. First piercing: ears. when i was 5 i think.
54. First best friend: Stephanie from kindergarten.
55. First sport you joined: swim.
56. First vacation: Melaka.
58. First pair of trainers: er..?

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: saliva.
60. Drinking: nope.
61. I'm about to: blink.
62. Listening to: faaann.
63. Waiting on: maybe a surprise call from somebody? i dont know.

YOUR FUTURE
64. Want kids?: mmhm.
65. Get Married?: yash.
66. Career?: still pondering.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses: hugs.
69. Shorter or taller: tall.
70. Older or Younger: uhm..
71. Romantic or spontaneous: both.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: belly.
73. Sensitive or loud: depends.
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: depends.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: nope.
77. Drank hard liquor: drank liquor, but not hard liquor.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: i lost 2 glasses when i was young. or was it 3?
79. Sex on first date: cheap freak.
80. Broken someone's heart: gua.
82. Been arrested: nope.
83. Turned someone down: gua.
84. Cried when someone died: duh.
85. Fallen for a friend?: gua.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: not regularly.
87. Miracles: i guess.
88. Love at first sight: its crap.
89. Heaven: yash.
90. Santa Claus: nope.
91. Kiss on the first date: nope.
92. Angels: yash.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: nope.
95. Did you sing today?: yash.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: nope.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: i dont know. there's too many.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: i dont know.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: i fear.
100. Posting this as 100 truths & asking people to do this tag if they want to.

listening to your voice makes me sway.

cant believe im not asleep. again.
i need excitements. i need truths. i need to go out.

JaMie~*

Youthy.

YOUTH WAS AWESOME.
Ps. Jay Koopman is indeed a true inspiration to all. having him to share his personal life was really, gosh. there's no doubt every corner of Kyrugma House's Love Hall was touched and moved by God. totally speechless. Praise the Lord! :)

i didnt get a chance to take a photo with him though. he was busy. :( and i was shy. xD you dont get that alot from me aye. yeaa, but i took pictures with anyone i saw and some tiada kaitan. enjoy! :D