Let me.

its hitting me hard. like a meteor falls to the earth and hit me alone with its burning ends. im not making sense. :( i wanna run. really, i do. just like Jacob in Eclipse. :( i wanna run and never come back, never stop. til my lungs burst, til my mouth runs dry, til my ears hear nothing but mere muffling voices, til my eyes burn with tears, til my ankles sore, til my legs' muscles cramp, til my back starts to break, til my heart stops beating.. and one day when i fall, when my head hits to the ground, everyone tremble by the hard impact between me and the ground, a fraction of the earth cracks, like an earthquake. i hear nothing but whispers. and when my visions starts to blur and the melody of the earth fades, i will be with him. from above, i see my body, flat on the ground. i saw a smile that says,"its finally over. no more pain i cannot bear." i hope to die like a rose. elegant with concentrated colour, yet fierce with thorns around it. like a morning glory that shines during the day and protected, by night. very upset now.

God, carry me. carry me back up to stand tall, high and proud. :( i dont wanna be slumpy, low.. broken. :(