another exact month.

i know i know. i cant REALLY be on hiatus. i have too much to say. especially today. so, leave me alone. i spotted a stranger with the grey&red striped jacket that i wanted in my desires list. DAMN.
not. my. week.

there was a boy. he had a big, shiny marble. he love that marble very much. the bubbles in the marble was like planets aligned with its orbits. the color was exquisitely beautiful like the colors of the rainbow. he takes his marble wherever he goes. he polished, played and sleeps with the marble, like nothing can ever replace it. after few months, the marble had massive scratches, cracks, all worn out. one day, he bought a new marble. its size was small and simple. its color couldnt compare to the one before, yet he loves it much more than the other. he treasured and holds it delicately like holding a baby. he threw the big marble away, because it was useless to him. he couldnt boast to his friends how pretty it was anymore. it was used, cannot be recycled, but rot. the small marble took its place. "nothing can ever substitute you," said once upon a time..

i know its lame. no inspiration to write it perfectly. today is a very.. difficult day. all the memories comes rushing into my head. its hard for you to imagine how hard it was to cope with all the memories racing in my mind with all the other worries combined.. it isnt about the DAY, nor the month, its the DATE. ive never been happy when it falls on this date..

i dont need you to judge, i dont need you give me that big-wide-i-dont-really-wanna-smile-nor-look-at-you face. i just need you to care like you did before. unfortunately, im not the person whom you can only see in the crowd any longer. im not the person whom you can see a bright halo taped to my skin. im not that person anymore..

if i were a boy, you'd be DEAD

sorry, emo these few days.

JaMie~*