shift

so THEBIGWAR changed its date from the 22nd to 23rd cause of some event on that day. SPARED ANOTHER DAY! for those who dont have the new timetable, its here.

so next week is Gerak Gempur. another exam to keep us busy until SPM comes. every subject lasts for 2 hours. addmaths is of course an exception. one paper, one hour. i know its very very close but, im not ready! :(

nothing much to say about this week though. been studying, but not like gila hardcore. must get the PMR oomph back. or else.. :/

currently loving this song. :)

Keith Urban
Only You Can Love Me This Way

Well, I know there’s a reason
And I know there’s a rhyme
We were meant to be together
That’s why
We can roll with the punches
We can stroll hand in hand
And when I say it’s forever
You understand

That you’re always in my heart
You’re always on my mind
And when it all becomes too much
You’re never far behind
And there’s no one that comes close to you
Could ever take your place
‘Cause only you can love me this way

I could’ve turned a different corner
I could’ve gone another place
But I’d a-never had this feeling
That I feel today
Yeah

And you’re always in my heart
You’re always on my mind
When it all becomes too much
You’re never far behind
And there’s no one that comes close to you
Could ever take your place
‘Cause only can love me this way

Ooooohh…

Na na, somebody love you

And you’re always in my heart
You’re always on my mind
And when it all becomes too much
You’re never far behind
And there’s no one that comes close to you
Could ever take your place
‘Cause only you can love me this way

Only you can love me this way

too much

ages ago. i forgot what event was this already. Gaya Street.

haha so i read back some of the posts i published, the ancient ones. some from other blogs like Xanga. i had the Friendster one but deleted already.

IT WAS EMBARRASSING.

cause i used to write about from what i do in the morning till night. i even typed out the time and what i did throughout my boring day. i even sorta like interacted with myself. i did this >>*sweat*. my goodness. o.o and i coloured my text with all sorts. i think it was really annoying when i read them xD KACAU OH.

i was a noob blogger man. now i know people dont read those. thats why i dont get comments xD it was a "NO WONDER" hit on the face.

i will blog better now okay? :P

oh, and ill deal with my blog layouts and stuff AFTER, the BIG thang. :S

27Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

- John 14:27 -

the world can never be peaceful. fights, robberies, wars. God's peace is warm, comforting & eternal.

E3

today during cell group we did something different. we head over to the main church to play! many people couldnt make it so there was only Daniel, Gareleos, Ronald, Alicia, Frank and i. we played Captains Ball! instead of using volleyball, we used water balloons xD we had 4. Alicia dropped 3 during the game xD

next when all the balloons burst, BASKETBALL!! 30n3 man, game on! i was with Ronald and Frank a team. Alicia, Gar and Daniel one team. i forgot the score hahaha. we didnt really keep count cause it was so tiringgggg. lost my stamina, kenot kenot.

then about 530pm when we were at the roundabout, there was dog show! or we thought it was. we made a detour before heading back to Kyrugma :D THEYRE SO PRETTYYY!!! theres one thats sooo cute oh. okay okay, they arent so bad. but still doesnt change the fact that im a cat person. :p

showering in Kyrugma is fun :D i had dinner with Alicia, but i was the one eating and she was talking haha. she didnt eat. we went up to Peace room to dry our hair.

usually it would be Apple who eats with me. whenever i cross the roads, i think of her.

whenever i go Vedablu for icecream, i think of Vern.

whenever i go Warisan, i think of Kavita.

and when i have McFlurry, i think of Tim.

sorry no pictures. my phone would be in danger with those balloons. :p

Life... is like a box of chocolates - a cheap, thoughtless, perfunctory gift that no one ever asks for, cant be returned because all you get back is another box of chocolates. So, you're stuck with mostly undefinable whipped mint crap, mindlessly wolfed down when there's nothing else to eat while you're watching the game. Sure, once is a while you get a peanut butter cup or an English toffee but it's gone too fast and the taste is fleeting. In the end, you are left with nothing but broken bits filled with hardened jelly and teeth-shattering nuts, which, if you are desperate enough to eat, leaves nothing but an empty box of useless brown paper.

-The X-Files-

i like this quote because it relates chocolates & life. MISHMASH!

echoes

everybodys gone now.

Melbourne, Australia

Russia

United Kingdom

you guys are mean! how can you just leave like that. :( i gave all 3 of you your own letters from me. i hope you guys dont lose it or something, because thats my love letter to you. never will i forget all the great times we had. silly, stupid, ngong moments. please come back soon.

i miss you guys dearly. :'(

antiques worth more

this is a plush Dino i saw in ToysRUs. so cute!! i hugged it everywhere while walking around ToysRUs xD its soft and big. its price is almost equivalent to my 1 month allowance man. i looked for a smaller one but they were so distorted and ugly. once i saw this plush, i took a photo and sent to Vern. the one dino-person i can never forget. :)

ps. Noah asked how am i during that week's Saturday night in EC. so-so i guess. still adapting to the difference. but, how am i gonna survive when Tim's, Vern's and slowly becoming to Kavita's and Apple's departure? i know i keep telling people: nahh, they'll come back, wth are you crying for.

maybe they feel they didnt spend much of their time with them and feel sad about it. and maybe i cause i have and would like to spend more. but that would be selfish aye?

my blessings to all of them, that they might shine in wherever they are settled. i love you guys <3

only this much

what is your limit?

can you stand for an hour or two without complaining?

can you stay awake for long hours to do work?

can you carry something that is almost as heavy as you?

can you hold your breath for 5minutes underwater?

can you stay quiet & nod when someone is scolding you?

can you stay put when watching some gory/thrilling movie?

can you win a non-blinking game?

can you accept the choices made for you, but its not what you wanted?

can you stay calm when the blame is put on you?

can you practice some musical instruments for 5hours?

can you not eat till dinner?

can you not swear for a week?

can you sit at your desk and shut everything out to study?

can you live without your phone?

* * *

its things like these that could make you go crazy. that little scent of temptation, to break the fast. its when you can feel your stomach twist and your mind is not clear anymore. that burning thirst suppressing at your chest, pulling you towards what you cant do. an anger builds up and your body starts to tremble involuntarily.

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its hard these couple days. :(

what is your limit?

idk why cant i color my text. it just wont appear in my blog. :/

mingle

so this is a picture of all the movies i watched during the school+raya holidays.

first ticket is Grown Ups. HAHAHAHAHA STUPID MOVIE XD id love to try arrow roulette with Karen, Vern, Apple, Tim, Gar, Frank & Wilkins though. see who wins! :p watched it with Tim, Elaine & Karen. :)

second ticket is Resident Evil (18). it was fine to me. didnt know it ended when it did. weird ending and weird plot. the actress very geng & yeng, but Jolie still wins xD watched it with Tim, Karen, DEREK YONG >=(, Apple, Vern, Ollee, Mandy, Frances, Gar, Ronald & Frank.

third ticket is Devil (pg13). NOT PG13 MAN HAIYER. i watched it at 12.00am, adds the 'thrill'. :S when the movie ended, somebody said,"wo bu yao shang lift liao." hahaha. this was with Tim, Terence & Melvin.

last ticket: Step Up 3!! woiyoh my favorite scene was the dancing on the water part. ABSOLUTELY LOVED IT. Luke like kelefeh only one. ><

Absence diminishes small loves & increases great ones,
as the wind blows out the candle & fans the bonfire

the word,
CHRISTIAN

without CHRIST,
CHRISTIAN

all thats left is,
IAN

which,
I. A. N.

stands for,
I AM NOTHING

i hantam title okay

A never-ending journey

It was that morning when we set sail to the sea. The air was misty and wet as it rained the night before. The sun had just awoken from its sleep. As it rose from its bed of clouds, its rays stretched from the North to the South, from the East to the West. The sea waves glistened like little glow-worms.

The ship was not like any other ships. Its body was made from hard wood, tough enough to withstand the cruel waves of the sea. The surrounding of the ship was dressed with moist, green moss. The sails were white with its pearly glaze. As much as we hoped for, there were no captains or pirates or any of his crews. There were no skeleton flags, cannons, gruesome dungeons or swords. There were only us, you and I.

The ship sailed by itself, guided from the zephyrs of the wind. When night started to cover its dark blanket over the sky, the sun descended. It gave a mighty, yet sleepy golden light just to greet us goodnight. Not long after, the sun sunk to the abyss of the sea. This time, the moon was seen, hanging with the dazzling stars in the sky. It felt as if we existed in another world, a whole new dimension. But the night did not just went by like that. The waves of the sea started to battle. As it continued to crash and roar, the clouds joined in to watch. There were applauses and encores of thunders and lightings.

Although there was so much happening, the ship stood still and calm. There were no waves that pushed the ship to cause a to-and-fro motion. Somehow, it felt like there was a force-field protecting us. It was like the gods above wanted no interference between you and me. As we watched the battle under the net of stars, the world started to blur and fade from our sight.

I felt a friendly, warm hug on the chilly morning. It was you. It was the early dawn of a brand new day. I stood and saw that the battle of the waves was over. I then had a moment of thought on who won. Suddenly, I felt a very protective grab at my waist. I heard your voice slipping through your lips saying, “Look! That’s us!” I followed the trace of your hand pointing forward.

I spotted two figures. They were not moving. They did not have eyes, lips, nose nor ears. They just stood still and stared right back at us. “Who are they?” I wondered.

It then dawned on me that it was us. It was you and I. It was our silhouette, framed to the surface of the sea. I then shifted my eyes to yours. Your eyes were shining with excitement, yet soft and warm. I smiled with relief. We watched the sun rise from the seabed, accompanied by the two figures, swaying with the waves.

where?

what ive been doing for the last 2 weeks :D

one day, it rained like crazy. seee! so foggy.

this is.. aunty Millie! so yeng oh kan. this was during Father's Day in Abundant Life.

my DAAAARLING baby Jasper. <3

LOOK AT THE HAIRDRYER. blue light = ultraviolet. the box says so!

makeup[left], no makeup[right]

ini bukan couple okay. just wanted to let you guys see how dirty mine is xD

LAW TEST!!

i drew everything here besides the pretty apple drawn by, who else? APPLE LAH. :p

shes faaaaassstt. wooshh~~

look like shes flying kan HAHA

Jeson & Gar. GAR WON OH.

kai zai.

pretty sunset at Sutera.

dad & i. xD
Karens killer heels.
i took a bite of CHOCOLATE ice cream at karens. hehe so nice. =3
did her nails with the help of celotape.

during KPP, we made a shoe tower. TEAMWORK!

we were very bored cause it only started 2 hours later. 930am delayed to 1130am. MEEHHHH.
my lovely book. :D
blue[Karens], pink[mine]

hehehehehe, kacau. :p

My Heart

Di sini kau dan aku
Terbiasa bersama
Menjalani kasih sayang
Bahagia ku denganmu

Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indah
Ku ukir nama kita berdua
Di sini surga kita

Bila kita mencintai yang lain
Mungkinkah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin, tak akan pernah

Sayangku akan hilang...

If we love somebody
Could we be this strong
I will fight to win
Our love will conquer all
I wouldn't risk my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart... My heart...

these were the pictures i wanted to post up.

this was funny. the leg so kesian.

left: (heel) painful.

right: (shoe) less painful..

totally thought of the da yu and xiao yu man.

both pictures was in Physics reference book. imagine how much fun i has while studying aeh?

anybody there?

EXAMS OVER! :D

finally getting some good rest after a month of torture. mm.. :) so hows everybody doing? seems its true that 2010 is predicted as a tough year. but hey, when you've got your homies, you've got homies man haha. :D

anyone of you being a shadow of whoever you're spending time with? when that person is taking all the spotlight, the cheers and roses.. where are you? next to him? in front? stuck behind within the curtains in the shadows?

COME ALIIIIVEEE LIKE A MUMMY!! stop hiding and preserving yourself. its enough. for once, go into the light. let everyone be able to see you, to see what you're capable of. i mean, we're created uniquely and differently. how can u say that God just made you out of someone else's image? He made you YOU.

i dont know why im saying this haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIMOTHY WONG!!! :D :D :D

costly

the person you love should be a person who keeps you going; not pull you down, to be able to study; not stop your responsibilities. he/she should not be the person who only can make you dream dreams and hope on fictional stories.

this works both genders okay. no discrimination, haha. but, dont you agree? :)

that person should not stop you from doing what is right and put their on greedy-self for their own good. that person should not make you fantasize what isnt real, only to last for that period of time. if you have believed in them fully then you ngong lo. :P

but we are humans anyway right? thats why we need failures to have success. LEARN from it! dont be stupid and repeat your dirty footsteps. it wont be easy to wash it off after a while, you know?

that person should be your motivation to do things, whether or not in work, studies, chores or decision-making. that person is NOT your solution but helps you to look for solution. that person should also be a person who is able to help you face your fears and build your abilities up.

most of all, that person should love you for who you are because he/she loves you for who you are and what you do at the first place. =3

me and you

"i want to marry my best friend because FRIENDSHIP, not ROMANCE, is the FOUNDATION of a LONG-LASTING RELATIONSHIP."

got it from a book. :D

very very inspiring. very true indeed though. to meet someone you do not know of and dates, if you get into an argument, NAH. APA MACAM? you have to use tricks and lovey dovey stuff to cheer him/her up.

but with the best friend label, you know what she/he wants. because you understand them so much. but of course some people say being too understanding can be really annoying at times. well, at least your relationship isnt based on pick up lines, right? :D

in my opinion, you can only love someone if you really know who they really are. whether theyre with friends, family or you. everything counts! without accepting any part of their NORMALITY, huhu.. not a keeper lo you. :p shame shame.

not to Hogwarts. :)

i wouldnt be here if it wasnt you. you've let me practice my unknown gift, realized that i can do more for Eklektos. i will no longer feel alone because you've placed me into the heart of Eklektos. i am known because of you. my efforts and talents are recognized by you. if there was no you, there wont be a ministry we have now that is so so fun and family-like. you brought us together, all kinds of personalities clashed. at first it might seem to be a disaster, but you made it all better. (i just made another rhyme! :p)

when all dark and laughing voices behind my backs, you were there to facilitate me. whether or not im jolly sunshine full of happiness or down in the dumps, you made it all better because you make me feel like im special to you. that im capable like everyone else. you would laugh at my stupid jokes, when i actually personally know it doesnt really make much sense, haha. you make me feel like im wanted and belonged.

this person very special to me. a person that taught me many things: philosophically, spiritually, socially, emotionally. this person i can never describe because it will be tons and tons of paragraphs. this feeling you'd only know if you've met her.

thank you Eilvane Chieng Ai Vern. ♥

the ol' times

i was in the bus, back seat this time. i didnt mind though. there was 3 primary school kids sitting behind me. they were talking in Chinese, about how many classes they have and all.

boy1 boy2

ni de ke shi A dao Z ah?

mei you ziang li hai lah. A dao F ba le.

F shi zhui ben ah?

ah shi lo.

MMHMM. theres more.

ni de Bulbasaur bian liao lah?

bian liao Ivysaur lo.

wah zhiang kuai. sho mo level oh?

qi shi. wo yao kuai kuai bian da qi Venusaur.

i wanted to join int he topic but they were speaking Chinese, more cun than mine so i shaddap. made me happy though. :)