Let everything has breath live the life of their own.
Give them what they need, not what they deserve.
Let them not be invincible & unseen.
They deserve to shine too.
i am me
Let me be who i want to be & you might be surprised. :)
Say HELLO! to Jamie: follower of God.
My family is the treasure of my life.
My friends are my compassion.
The Seranta gang are my home people.
i sayang them so much. :)
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Posted on: Wednesday, December 31, 2008 Posted at: 3:12 PM
Time machine.
thats Tim.
2008. BIGGEST regret: not being able to make the best of my life. HAPPIEST event: my nephew. :) so many pictures. tells so much. im gonna miss you 2008. another 10 months of fear. i hate you. :P
promises are meant to be broken. hearts are meant to be shattered. feelings are meant to be lies. tears are meant to dry.
Posted on: Tuesday, December 30, 2008 Posted at: 1:00 PM
Weekiee weekiee waa waaaaaa~
[]7a's in PMR.
JANICE; CLARISSA; JOCELYN IM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!
took PMR results this morning. :D :D :D three of them up there got 7A's. im so proud!! weeeeee!! for me, i got 6A 1B. :) awesome right? i was expecting something less than that. Geography for B. :( *psst! lets get Cynthia. xD* never in my life i got 6A's in my exams before. im proud of myself. *pats self.* teehee.. yay! im gonna get a watch from dad! :)
update again later. :)
hee..:D
uinah, Sejarah kepujian. FIRST time man. xD
this is was hilarious. Fluency & rhythm : BM-A; BI-B. xD xD xD!!
Posted on: Monday, December 29, 2008 Posted at: 10:11 PM
Open your eyes. Yeah, it's me.
played nail polish with Ting. she accidently wiped it to my WHITE shirt. it almost got me burning with rage. thank God i washed it on time. the paint came off. PHEW.
big day tomorrow. people out there who are nervous, DUMBO LA YOU. im anxious! :D :D :D :D :D i might be a little disappointed, but hey.. you cant turn back time. im now deciding which class i wanna go in. Victor got me thinking. xD i told him i wanted to go C class. he said many malay dudes, better go back B class, original classmates. but B class is Science Stream, means got BIOLOGY. T.T C class have no Bio. HMMMM.. dumbo Victor Lee Kwang Tao. ==..
i bought my uniform already. YAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy... nyet. another year of sports day, merentas desa, cheerleading, marching, exams, teachers and fear. :(
Posted on: Sunday, December 28, 2008 Posted at: 7:11 PM
Hold me.
[x]ink heart. [novel.] *27DEC08* [x]earrings. *27DEC08* [x]buy long necklace. *27DEC08*
presents, thanks to: Steffith my love; Timothy my brother; master AhBun; Kavita; Aivern; Frances my 3rd house owner; Samantha my Sammikins;Jessica my human hugger; Apple my Twilight partner; Daniel my Dahh-Niiee-Eehh-Yeell; Janice my supa goodie friend; is that all? sorry if missed anyone out. please tell.
~*~ she hides her face when shes not alone. she wears a mask but its not her own. its everyone else she wants to be. be just like them supposedly free. free from troubles the troubles of life. free from sins and worries and strife. but when night time falls and she climbs into bed. her mask falls apart and her heart fills with dread. shes screams and she cries but no one can hear. she wants them to know all her fear. her fear of facing a world with no mask. afraid they wont like her. afraid they wont ask. ___________________________________________________________________
floorball today: got hit 5 times. bruise. fun. me. Timothy. Terence. someone stepped on Duane's shoe. i'll get you. ___________________________________________________________________
i hate black glasses. i hate black vectorized clothes. i hate boxers. i hate converse bag. i hate Body Glove pencil case. i hate zipper bags. i hate rings. i hate All Saints guys uniforms. i hate destroyed thumb. i hate drumsticks. i hate China. i hate the number 25. i hate the number 21. i hate the number 14. i hate the number 3. i hate the number 28. i hate the number 7. i hate sweet talks. i hate the word forever. i hate the word promise. i hate the word never ever. i hate the word i love you. i hate travian. i hate flowers. i hate roses. i hate Sony Ericsson. i hate Nokia. i hate memory cards. i hate phone numbers. i hate monkeys. i hate rubiks cube. i hate B and C classes. i hate round plush toys. i hate black jackets. i hate the beach. i hate Centre Point. i hate Cathay. i hate 1Borneo's GSC. i hate Quiksilver slippers. i hate web cams. i hate mickey mouse necklaces. i hate vans. i hate bridals gowns. i hate paired rings. i hate skirts. i hate apples. i hate Shepherd pies. i hate Secret Recipe. i hate The Times Bookstore. i hate Warisan. i hate you.
dont pity me. dont ask me whats wrong. ur lucky enough to know how i feel so shut up. im still slightly down. Credits to Terence and Timothy and Oscar for trying to cheer me up. sorry for saying harsh stuff. i wanted to be alone so i wont say such stupid things to u guys. forgive me?
ps. everything up there was just an expression. no meaning to it. use ur brain.
Posted on: Tuesday, December 23, 2008 Posted at: 10:35 PM
Weeeee..
i DID when out today. xD 7.30pm, Christmas deco with Kavita; Terence; Timothy; Oscar; Daniel; David. fun fun fun! we made 'pa pie mashe'. i dont how to spell it. xD after that, went easy way at Bornion Centre. David talk craps entertained us. Loopy. xD Terence was like on drugs laughing like crazy. haha! :P yea so im home now. :D
[x]floorball stick. *22DEC08* [x]watch cd Janice gave. *20DEC08*
changed the image above again. the fuawer didnt show. :(
oh yea, pictures of Duane. tomorrow? hehe..
nothing to do today. :( stay home and rot. but good as well, cause my back wouldnt hurt. like every fraction of muscles crush to each other. ouch, really hurt. hope the pain doesnt come back. it hurt-ed like u cant imagine. i had it.. last 2 years? and healed the end of 2006. i had to go to the Tai Chi. the put that sucking thing to my back. that was so fun! but it made many circles to my back and stayed there for 2 weeks? and every night when i sleep, i have to put a small cushion to my back. it eases the pain, but very uncomfortable to sleep on. :( yea.. lets hope it wouldnt come back. for now, it hurts when i walk to much. like my whole body is too heavy for my spine. yea.. sad. :(
hehe.. i changed the image above to a FUAWER. :) okay ka okay ka okay ka okay??? :D i know its sort of simple, but the the post matters most right? hehe.. :) couldnt find any nice skin for my blog. plus, im lazy. :D oh look at the time. oioi luu..
Posted on: Monday, December 22, 2008 Posted at: 11:32 PM
YES YES YES!! :D
WHAT THE HORSE HAPPENED TO MY WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION PICTURE ABOVE?????? grrhh.. new layout! wheeeeeeeeeee!! have to get to work again! :)
just came back from 1Borneo. followed Oscars car to 1B. there were us: me; Oscar; Ting; Apple; Terence; Timothy; Melvin. separated after a while cause Apple havent taken her dinner so Oscar&Apple, me&Ting&Timothy&Terence&Melvin. :D we watched movieeeeee!! YES MAN. rate 7.5/10. not bad though. the SICKESS part of the movie was the old lady thing. YUCK. ohman.. kids CANNOT watch. xD fun, fun, fun. then Timothy sent me home.
I MET MY DUANE!! DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE DUANE. *shut up. i didnt copy paste.* MWAHS!! will post pictures of him tomorrow. :)
Posted on: Sunday, December 21, 2008 Posted at: 12:12 AM
BUUUAAAaaaAAAaaaa!! :D
uhm, yes.. i love my hair. :D *SHUT UP* some people might say it doesnt fit me or i look ugly, but.. HELLO ITS ONLY HAIR. IT'LL GROW. ahh.. :)
ps. Ting called me China doll & a mushroom. T.T someone hit her, please.>=Dno wait. Ting, you're a BRINJAL.HAH!
just came home from Damai. Eklektos is part of my family. MUAKX. i love you ALL. :D ngehehe.. oh and Terence said third place was his team in the 3on3 match between Eklektos teams. *I SAID I THOUGHT WHAAATTT.* yea and i clipped my hair to youth today. :D they didnt notice at all. [most of them.] but er.. Edwina and Frances pulled me to the toilet to see my hair. it sucked. :( HAVENT SHOWER BAH SO IT LOOKS FLAT AND EURGLY. :P yes.. hee..
Posted on: Friday, December 19, 2008 Posted at: 6:27 PM
*BANG BANG* you die.
before.
after before.
after after before.
after after after before.
now?
ngehehehehe.. yea well, alarm rang at 5am, but i woke at 5.30am. 6am, prayer meeting. 7.30am, end prayer meeting. about, 8am, went damai for breakfast. 9.15am, reached Kyrugma then walk over to Sanctuary for gift wrapping. 2pm, end gift wrapping. 2.30pm, saloon. Ting dyed highlights, purple. i cut hair. 6pm, reached home.
mmMMMmm.. relaxation please.
oh no wait.. my mum bought new mattress for me. its so hard, ugh. oh and btw, i sleep on my mattress, literally. first layer:floor. second:mattress. third:ME. yes i sleep on the floor. i love the floor, but i HATE the new mattress. it stinks and its hard. my back nearly broke. had injuries in the past. :)
no one commented abt the hair.. ==.. only Alwyn. ive made up my mind to cut front bangs. :D just TRY. just wanted to see how i look then next time when my hair grow longer. it'll be side bangs again. :D
went Gaya street for the Christmas thing. PowerHouse, GOOD JOB! :) their drama & dancing was awesome. dancing dont really have OOHMMP! so yea.. it was nice still. i brought Ting along. thank God she didnt get lost. we got lost though. hah. everybody disappeared when we turn around. so we started walking then met up with them. lucky lucky. at about 11pm maybe? uhm we went Tanjung Aru yam cha. me and SamKu ate coconut. Kavita ate jagung [the long one], Sam ate jagung [the cup one] and i ate peanuts. :D :D yums. after all that, followed Calvin's car and i just got home. *wide smile* going prayer meeting later. 5 hours more.
Posted on: Thursday, December 18, 2008 Posted at: 12:00 AM
Bing BANG Boom!!
haircut please?? i feel like getting a long straight bangs. :3 like this:
or just trim and be this?..again. :
==.. haha. and Timothy, if you're reading, YES YES im so into the flouronmyhead girl. gosh, its so awesome. i wanna try new hairstyles. :D not a crime. but i fear front bangs dont suit my head&face. : / so.. SUGGESTIONS?? please please PLEASE comment. chatbox right there. -->
Posted on: Wednesday, December 17, 2008 Posted at: 6:37 PM
Third post.
OMG LOOK AT THIS. LORNA MATHEWS IN NEWSPAPER.
DAILY EXPRESS NEWSStamp of success for All Saints
Kota Kinabalu: December 16, 2008 was a proud and historical day for SM All Saints in Likas - and not because they achieved 100 per cent passes or won any competition.
Instead it was the day a special set of stamps and first day covers featuring it and three other premier schools in the country officially went on sale in post offices nationwide. The four Mission schools of SMK Victoria and SMK Convent Bukit Nanas (both in Kuala Lumpur), SMK St Thomas in Kuching and SM All Saints were chosen by Pos Malaysia Berhad to be honoured in the custom-made stamps and first-day covers for their academic and curriculum achievements.
A beaming SM All Saints Principal, Lorna Mathews, declared that this was the stuff of dreams, which they had never imagined to arrive at their front door. "(We are) elated and of course very, very proud that we were chosen as one of the four schools in the whole of Malaysia. There are many premier schools but to be chosen to represent Sabah and Malaysia is beyond our wildest dreams," she said.
Actually, they got the news about the recognition some time in June this year when Pos Malaysia called up and said they were sending some people over to take photos of the school for the purpose. But the exact release date of the stamps was not known to them. There was little to hide her delight at seeing the colourful stamps containing pictures of two of the school's buildings.
"It means we have been acknowledged for past achievements and our contributions, the long history that we hold and history of excellence, in all sense of the word," she said, adding she ordered 500 copies for the school.
According to Pos Malaysia Bhd stamp and philately unit head Yasmin Ramli the chosen schools had produced many national leaders, corporate figures, professionals, sportsmen and scholars "who have contributed significantly to the growth of Malaysia."
To this end, Lorna, who has been principal since June 2003, said her school had produced notable personalities and professionals, past and present, among others, former Chief Minister Tan Sri Chong Kah Kiat and Upko Deputy President-cum-Tuaran MP, Datuk Wilfred Bumburing, who was also a former Deputy Chief Minister.
"In fact present Chief Minister Datuk Seri Musa Aman was also once a student here."
Golfer Ben Leong, swimmers Alex Lim Keng Liat and Elvin Chia, and karate exponents Michelle Koh and Sarah Chung, to name a few, were also products of the school.
Lorna, the 17th and only woman Principal of SM All Saints, believed the recognition was due reward for the school for being able to keep up with demanding standards over the years and still deliver the goods.
"Children now are different from past generations, they are more difficult and have more discipline problems but despite all kinds of changes we can still rise above that É we had just celebrated our 100 years in 2003.
"Every school has its strengths and weaknesses (and) we have our own flaws but we try to do our best. So we definitely deserved this and I strongly believe my predecessors would agree with me," she said.
Meanwhile, she opined that it was no sheer coincidence that three of the premier schools picked were Christian Mission schools, pointing out such schools not only stimulated thinking but also were successful in instilling moral values among its students.
"I'm not sure about SMK Victoria but the other three schools are definitely all Mission schools É in fact SMK St Thomas and SM All Saints are both Anglican Mission schools.
"I think that (the recognition) has something to say about Mission schools.
"You can get academic results anywhere (but) a piece of paper will not mean anything if you don't have the personality and character to go with it," she said.
SM All Saints was established as King Edward VII School on Dec. 22, 1903, near the Jesselton Clock Tower.
Declared open by then Governor, E.W. Birch, the school moved twice, the second time to Karamunsing in September 1909, before settling at its present site in Likas.
haha. i visited Elreena's blog and i she had this, "i type 63 words per minute." so i wanted to try. haha. fun fun fun!!
first try: 222 points, so you achieved position 457430 of 1566028 on the ranking list You type 291 characters per minute You have 52 correct words and you have 0 wrong words
second try: 172 points, so you achieved position 769663 of 1566068 on the ranking list You type 269 characters per minute You have 46 correct words and you have 3 wrong words
third try: 193 points, so you achieved position 630657 of 1566101 on the ranking list You type 279 characters per minute You have 50 correct words and you have 3 wrong words
im forbidding myself to smile. : / i ate bubblegum bah! the more i chew, the more it got.. solid. xD
i didnt get to see Duane today. :'( *weeps* i didnt go floorball training. i guess i'll see him on Sunday. Thy misses Thou already. nyet.
oh and i found out the computer speakers arent busted. i put into the wrong lubang behind the CPU. xD!!
me:ko, the speakers rosak already, go buy new one ehh. bro:*walks to the CPU* me:*blinks* bro: aiya bodo la u. wrong hole la. me:*eyes wide open* OHH.. bro:*walks away* me:ehh, still no sound one? bro:*still walking* me:ishh..
xD xD xD. hahahahaha.. yea.. the reason why still no sound coming out from it cz the monitor's volume was muted. hahaha.. freaky. :D
i LOVE you Jayden. i LOVE you Duane. i LOVE you CHRISTMAS.
Posted on: Tuesday, December 16, 2008 Posted at: 10:51 PM
Shut up, shut up, get outta my head.
nyeh. i cant stand not blogging. ==.. IM GONNA MEET DUANETOMORROW. FOR THE FIRST TIME. ohman.. he'll be so awesome.. sleek&strong. most of all.. MINE MINE MINE!!! mM.. Duane, Duane, Duane.. i cant wait to see u.. my computer speakers are busted. UGH. new ones i need. nyet.
15DEC.
cuzzies from New Zealand came back. not all three of them though. only two. one's younger than me by 3 years, girl cuzzie and ther other is same age but younger than me by months, guy cuzzie. darn it, they're so tall. they used to be shorter than me. :( haha. the guys taller, WAY taller than me now, but the girl is.. almost there. haha.. and they are HAWT. well, not really, but i guess some will get starstrucked by them. haha.. whatever. xD and OFCOURSE, they hate the heat. xD i told Ting [the girl. they are chinese not puteh people.] i wanted to buy a jacket. and she goes,"why dyu need a jacket in MALAYSIA JAMIE?!?!?" haha. i went totally speechless. good point she got there. HAHA.
TODAY.
went shopping with Ting & sister. Tseng [the guy] didnt wanna hang with girls so he went to his other relative house. [dads side.] Ting & i ate Yogur Berry. :D she bought 3 bookmarks and something else i forgot. haha. i bought a jacket [shhh, Ting!], 2 weird & 1 prezzies for three of my loves and.. something i forgot too. haha. sister bought baby stuff, the usual. yea, thats about it. :)
people who dont understand this, dont try. i didnt simply typed it out, just fyi. people who understand, this isnt meant for you to read, teach your tongue to be smart.
so ngiak oh seems like im the only whose commenting my own blog where all the humans i think im going to stop blogging for a period of time theres no reason for me to not or to blog see ya blog JaMie~*
Daniel, u better read this post. hah. :P Daniel told me we saw each other 4 times today. floorball; his house; youth; yam cha. haha. i told him i'll post it up in my blog. and i did! :) wait, wait. i saw Jess & Justin 4 times too nyeh. haha.
DAAHH-NIEEEE-EHHH-YEELLLLL!!!
and WTFish. i was suppose to get my WHITE floorball stick today. but guess what they got? A NEON YELLOW-GREEN COLOURED FLOORBALL STICK. i know its not a big deal. but IM PAYING MAN. grrh.. tonight was a disaster. im not happy. :/ :/ :/
and thanks Timothy. for paying my Lemon-suam and cheered me up. :) __________________________________________________________________
[12.17am]
waw so many people text me to cheer me up. i love u guys so much man. <3 thank u: Samson; Oscar; Timothy. and before that, during yam cha, Kavita; Justin; Daniel. i LOVE u all so much. thank u. :)
Posted on: Saturday, December 13, 2008 Posted at: 2:31 PM
Third place. Still proud.
Yes. today was the floorball 3on3 match with Eklektos teams. 4 teams.
team 1: Kavita; me; Timothy; Max. team 2:Oscar; Jessica; Collin; Vincent. team 3:Daniel;Justin; David; Ronald.
team 4:Terence; Christopher; Samuel. [SamKu suppose to go, but had errands.]
Max & Ronald played the first time. they were A-W-E-S-O-M-E. MAX!! Good job. :D same to u Ronald. :D cut short.
first place: team 3. second place: team 2. third place:team 1. i THINK. im not sure.
Good game everybody. :) after that we tapau food from Damai and to Daniel's house. so so gorgeous oh the house. :) but their dogs were... okay FINE. they are gorgeous too, but i dont like. :P im more of a CAT person. after everything, Oscar send me home and now im blogging. yea.. :) shower. rest. sleep. agh..
so tired.. but i still wanna run. let me run dry .
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Could've Been by Mandy Moore.
The flowers that you gave me Are just about to die When I think about what could've been Makes me want to cry The sweet words you whispered Didn't mean a thing I guess our song is over As we begin to sing
Could've been so beautiful
Could've been so right
Could've been my lover
Everyday of my life
Could've been so beautiful
Could've been so right
I'll never know what could've been
On a cold and lonely night
The memories of our lovin' Still linger in the air Like the faded scent of your roses Stay with me everywhere Everytime I get my hopes up They always seem to fall Still what could've been Is better than what could never be at all
Could've been so beautiful
Could've been so right
Could've been my lover
Everyday of my life
Could've been so beautiful
Could've been so right
You can't know what could've been
On a cold and lonely night
Could've been so beautiful Could've been so right You can't know what could've been On a cold and lonely night Ni-ooh-ight Ni-ooh-ight How can you know what could've been On a cold and lonely night
Posted on: Friday, December 12, 2008 Posted at: 9:00 PM
Let me.
its hitting me hard. like a meteor falls to the earth and hit me alone with its burning ends. im not making sense. :( i wanna run. really, i do. just like Jacob in Eclipse. :( i wanna run and never come back, never stop. til my lungs burst, til my mouth runs dry, til my ears hear nothing but mere muffling voices, til my eyes burn with tears, til my ankles sore, til my legs' muscles cramp, til my back starts to break, til my heart stops beating.. and one day when i fall, when my head hits to the ground, everyone tremble by the hard impact between me and the ground, a fraction of the earth cracks, like an earthquake. i hear nothing but whispers. and when my visions starts to blur and the melody of the earth fades, i will be with him. from above, i see my body, flat on the ground. i saw a smile that says,"its finally over. no more pain i cannot bear." i hope to die like a rose. elegant with concentrated colour, yet fierce with thorns around it. like a morning glory that shines during the day and protected, by night. very upset now.
God, carry me. carry me back up to stand tall, high and proud. :( i dont wanna be slumpy, low.. broken. :(
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry Call I'm desperate for your voice Listening to the song we used to sing In the car, do you remember Butterfly, Early Summer It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet Like when we would meet
Cause I was born to tell youI love you And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight
Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh Cause every breath that you will take When you are sitting next to me Will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy? (What's your, what's your...)
Cause I was born to tell youI love you And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home [X4] (I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
Cause I was born to tell youI love you And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight
Cause I was born to tell you I love you And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight (I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
seems to me that all the songs i listen to these few days are emo emo & lovey-dovey ones. haha. xD i used to hate lovey-doveys. hehe. i saw my friend's MSN pm that says, "Life isnt fair." it isnt that way. :) we think that way cause we wanted it to happen so quickly that it havent even happen at all. :D one word to define all this is, TIME. :) and God's time is always always EXACT. ours is not. God Bless! :)
Posted on: Thursday, December 11, 2008 Posted at: 9:11 PM
Dazzle me.
I need.. encouragement. :(
anyway, FLOORBALL 3ON3 BETWEEN EKLEKTOS YOUTH TEAMS ARE 2DAYS AWAY. i cant wait!! :D :D :D :D :D win or lose, atleast we have fun. but IF there is a chance of WINNING, i wanna win. :P i put the "WINNING" blue cause people who wins something always get a blue ribbon. haha. :D
i need to get my its getting.. long. xD haha. cut cut cut! maybe just trim and thinned up. :D definitely cut my fringe. aghh. keeps poking my eye. no wait, my NOSE to be exact. yes, its THAT long. nyeh.
i learnt an important thing today from Timothy W. yeee!! thanks. he dont need to go back Singapore anymore. im so glad, cause he really hates being in Singapore. heard that they dont like scholars. GRRH. he's moving to Taylors, KL. im so proud of himmm!! [u should be proud i bragged about u in my blog. xD :P]
im so so so so so worried. :( my nephew has cough. and it seems like he have fever too. and now he just vomited his milk and everything. his face is red. his eyes are tearing. and hes very very grumpy. its so heart breaking to see oh. and fyi, hes only 4months old okay. :( yish. how can this be happening oh. hes ONLY 4 months old. when u think hes so soundly asleep, he'll suddenly cough like adults one oh. yer yer. :( his temperature was37.1*C, now 38*C alreadyyyy. :'(
Posted on: Wednesday, December 10, 2008 Posted at: 7:31 PM
A cinderella story.
Some how I know I will find a way To a brighter day in the sun Somewhere I know that he waits for me Someday soon he'll see I'm the one
[pre-chorus] I won't give up on this feeling And nothing will keep me away
[chorus] 'Cause I still believe in destiny That you and I were meant to be I still wish on the stars as they fall from above 'Cause I still believe Believe in love
I know what's real cannot be denied Although it may hide for a while With just one touch love can conquer fears Turning all your tears into smiles
[pre-chorus] It's such a wounderous feeling I know that my heart can't be wrong
[chorus] 'Cause I still believe in destiny That you and I were meant to be I still wish on the stars as they fall from above 'Cause I still believe Believe in love
Love can make miracles Change everything Lift you from the darkness and make your heart sing Love is forever When you fall It's the greatest time of them all
[chorus] 'Cause I still believe in destiny That you and I were meant to be I still wish on the stars as they fall from above 'Cause I still believe Believe in love
Yes I still believe Believe in love Still believe in love I still believe Believe in love
sung by Hayden Panettiere. if any of u watch Cinderella 3, THAT MOVIE WAS SO AWESOME RIGHT?? the usual, fairytales that have a sad start and happy ending. i almost cried watching that movie. *sniffs* hehe. second post today btw. :D
im eating porridge. i feel sick. cause the reason why we eat porridge is cause we're sick. so i feel sick. xD so lame. ughh.. so many cubes of carrot. NYEHHH..
i slept late last night. :( eek. ahbun was online bah. man i miss him. i miss the 'gang' when we're still in All Saints. but everybody changed after they left school, only ahbun left unchanged. :) means, im still his slave. xD hes a good master. always help me do things. im more like a master than a slave. whoops. =x haha.. its so rare to see him online. so we chat until 2am and i had to say goodbye. :( there will be chances. haha..
my mum put my nephew beside me while i was sleeping. i was still +.+ like huuh..? and she left him there. T.T so he kept moving and his head hit my head so i woke up. i was clearing my phone inbox, then he started to yell. cause i didnt care him. xD then carry carry, stand stand, sit sit. put him down, he cry. carry carry, stand stand, sit sit. then i ngiak already i bring him down to my mum and went back upstairs. xD
pmr results comingggggggggggggggggggggggg. im actually looking forward to see how hav my grades improved. i know the kerajaan will give higher grade than u get in school cause pmr is easier. but still, whatever grades i get, im satisfied. so u people who grunts and cries at that piece of paper cause of not getting the results u wanted, good luck. xD i feel so evil. >=D
Posted on: Tuesday, December 9, 2008 Posted at: 3:57 PM
I dont wanna be too strong til i get weak.
i woke 'early' today. got woken up by Oscar's call. i stopped my alarm, cause it was annoying. hmm, alarms ARE meant to be annoying. xD floorball bah. its was 10.30am. they were almost to the community hall in front of my house, so have to rush a bit. i walked slowly. xD i ate my pork pau in the community hall. xD
played match with Daniel, Justin and David. my team was me, Terence and Kavita. i didnt play well. so blur oh. sleepy. haha. sorry guys! points were 6-2? i dont remember. i didnt assist Terence well. whoops. 3on3 match between Eklektos teams is coming. SATURDAY. woooh!! have to wake earlier oh, yer.. 9am to 11am. OSCAR BAH... T.T
i have two cousins from New Zealand coming back to KK. SUNDAY. die lo. xD theyre not really happy about it cause staying here, TOO long. a month or so. yea... i CANT wait. ==.. xD
Jess&i&KumaKuma. In Melinsung. Worship Team Retreat. Edrea named it Torbit, cause it looks like a rabbit upside down. so Norbit. NOO!! :P
i stole Oscar's shades. it keeps falling and since i wear glasses, and hes shades does not have degree, it made me dizzy. @@ me&Rabtoise. :D
Posted on: Monday, December 8, 2008 Posted at: 5:06 PM
I wanna be a growing tree that reaches to the sun.
HEY!! I know ive been lost for..? 2days? Yea, I had reasons. I went to my youths Worship team Retreat, thanks to Vern. Cause I didn’t think Im still in worship team. Ive not been on stage for a year plus. I was actually, sort of, on probation cause there was something wrong with my life so yea. They did it like, out of reaction. They didn’t TELL me I was, but.. AIYA I JUST WAS LA KAY. xD they knew there was something wrong and they just did not put me on stage anymore. I didn’t mind. :) [so good kan.] cause I knew too. Well, ANYWAYS.. retreat!
So so so so so so so fun!! Specially the games. WOAH. I tell u man. Ugh. xD credits to: Terence; Francisca; Emmanuel; Oscar; Vern; Aunty Rennie. Good game good game. GG!! xD and ALSO, thank God for blessing us that nothing bad happened and everything was.. not EXACTLY as planned, but God made it.. better. He was there. :)
Last night there was ministry time. And it was different. Normally ministry time u guys get prayed by people right? What we had was different. We were already in a circle, SO Vern said just sit down where we were and feel God’s presence. Talk to Him personally. Pray for ourselves. It was truly awesome. :) I had some complications lately, so u cant imagine how long I sat down and hid my face between my knees, crying. and when they all stopped, i was still crying. xD Hah, yea.
Thank God also for.. blessing me. Has been blessing me. Like I said, I had a rough time and after a few moments I realized that I haven’t done my devotion yet. [my first devotion btw. Don’t laugh.] i needed a devotional book to help me do my devotion cause, there is nothing in Christianity that’s not new. it was studying the book of Nehemiah. If u read Nehemiah 1:1-11, its actually very, sort of tragic but touching. xD haha I don’t know what am I talking. But that’s what I think la so don’t judge me. It was truly.. a WOW. Back to story. I realized I haven’t done devotion yet. I opened the devotional booklet, and guess what the title was?
Face it and Feel it.
And I was like..
Oh.. my.. goodness..oh my goodness.. oh my goodness...
It was exactly what I was feeling. Exactly what I needed. And after reading reading reading, I smiled. :D so awesome oh. Oh and this didn’t happened in the retreat. It was.. few hours before the retreat. Yea. :D
I know ive typed a lot but last thing I wanna say is that, I thank God im a Christian and that I have so.. so AWESOME family in Christ. i actually talked to Oscar about my rough moments and I tell u ah.. school friends right, they tell u the things that u already know. How frustrating is that? They’ll say, “just forget it la. Move on. Etc etc etc.” very general la, but Christian friends, they tell u more wiser things, more understanding. Im not boasting but, Christians ARE smarter than non-Christians. Not in study wise, OKAY. Sorry for those people I offended la kay. OH! And thank you Apple for praying for me and Steffibearing+talking with me through the night last night. I love u guys. Everyone. :) thanks. [if u wanna see pictures, go Apple's blog la. i dont have, much.]see ya.
Posted on: Sunday, December 7, 2008 Posted at: 1:16 AM
Guard ur wall.
girls.. guys.. GUARD ur wall. GUARD God's Kingdom. Guard.. ur heart. guard it.. because thats where God is. God lives in our hearts. God is there. God wants u to be strong. God.. loves you.
dont give ur heart away until the day u get MARRIED.
date when ur READY to marry.
i love u every beating hearts in my life.
i know i said that before and saying it again. its cause i really mean it.
Posted on: Saturday, December 6, 2008 Posted at: 6:47 AM
Look at the time.
its 6.47am. so very rare for me to be awake at this time. i couldnt sleep thats why, or should i say didnt sleep at all. i was up all night on my bed, twisting and turning. this is the best record i guess. my eyes are baggy. im sleepy and tired. *sighs*
1ST PRIZE - not sleeping at all. 2ND PRIZE - 10.30am. 3RD PRIZE - 6am.
wonderful. i broke the record. ==.. later i have to go to the Congame Convention thingy. later at 10am til 7pm. im lending a hand for my bro inlaw. hes involved. hope i dont collapse. pray for me. *sighs* unable to go youth tonight. have fun you guys.
does a blind person knows that their eyelids are open or close?" [answer me please. chatbox is just right there. -->>]
Gelato.
made with fresh fruit or other ingredients, such as chocolate, small confections [food that are rich in sugar.], cookies or biscuits.
Ice-cream/ iced cream.
a frozen dessert made from dairy products, such as milk and cream, combined with flavourings and sweeteners, such as sugar or other ingredients.
Frozen Yoghurt.
a frozen dessert made from or containing yoghurt or dairy analogues. it is similar to ice-cream, but lower in fat.
LIKE YOGUR BERRY LAAA!!
Sorbet. [sore-bay.]
a frozen dessert made from sweetened water flavoured with iced fruit, chocolate, wine or liquer.
so yummy kaaaaaannnnnnnn???? so many different types of frozen stuff. yum yum. i would really love to try sorbet though. WINE flavour. :D its texture looks creamy&hard&rich. WOOH! yum yum yum!
Posted on: Thursday, December 4, 2008 Posted at: 5:15 PM
Di er. xD
haha, second post today baahhhhhh!! first one was this morning. [look at the time at the bottom.] my mum is making those weird sounds. shes trying to entertain my nephew cause he sometimes dislike bathing and sometimes does. mood swings. *shakes head*
Christmas is around the corner. :D! thank God theres the Year End SALE. havent bought my Christmas stuff yet+CNY. this years CNY is in January. so early. yay! firecRacKeRs!
"does a blind person knows that their eyelids are open or close?" [answer me please. chatbox is just right there. -->>]
currently chatting with Luqman.
whoops.
i spoke too soon. =x he offlined. ==.. i realised that im staying up for nothing. hah. but, i cant do this anymore when school reopens. :( i dont wanna miss the moments. :) but still, PIMPLES&EYEBAGS betrays me. :(
before chatting with Luqman, i was searching for some blogger layouts for my Elaine, mui mui. :D Elaine Ong. :) she wanted to make her own blog and friendster/facebook, etc. she didnt know how to change layout and the rest of everything. xD haha. so she asked for my help.
hmm, lost that "magic" of blogging. maybe cause im ALWAYS home and there is NOTHING to do?!? like i said everyone, im VACANT.
Posted on: Tuesday, December 2, 2008 Posted at: 3:24 PM
A desire to want.
Christmas wishlist. :D : $$$$$. ; devotional book. :) [maybe this, but if anyone thinks theres others that is better, then.. :D]; Ink Heart. [its a novel. :D!]
; 7A's printed on that thin paper. xD ; bag. :P [the anywhere go bag.] ; floorball stick. ; Sabah chocolate. [the one where tourist buys. Sabah's most famous chocolate.] ; earrings? [i dont wanna buy myself, too many choices makes my head burn.] ; webcam. xD
i guess thats all. hah! xD seeee.. im not greedy. :P ____________________________________________________________________
to my dear friend, JHJM >>>1 Corinthians 6:9<<< you have a Bible. make it useful. :) please? ____________________________________________________________________
i want to breathe in You. i want tothirst for You. i want to touch You. i want to hold You. i want to feel You. i want to see You. i want to want. i want that desire for You.
short post. :) i dont know what to type about today.
this is what i can do with my sis. :D! its my brother in laws. not a real gun. but its REALLY heavy. dont play play!
Posted on: Monday, December 1, 2008 Posted at: 1:01 PM
Aching.
slightly into Robert Pattinson, for now. :D i didnt warm-up before floorball again. xD i thought Oscar wouldnt sub me out to play. hehe.. and the results? hyperventilating and aching body. :(
my sister took my Breaking Dawn book. she wont give me back. >=( im not done reading!! :(
thats Tim.
hee..:D
uinah, Sejarah kepujian.
this is was hilarious.
brother&sister. :D
taken by Kavita.
taken by me.
Daniel.
Jamie.
Timothy.
candid.
iloveyou.
you are the joy in my life.
why this picture so dark?
im proud of you Terence.
uhm, yes.. i love my hair. :D *SHUT UP* 
before.
after before.
after after before.
after after after before.
now?
or just trim and be this?..again. :
Kota Kinabalu: December 16, 2008 was a proud and historical day for SM All Saints in Likas - and not because they achieved 100 per cent passes or won any competition. 
heh
quiz
Jess&i&KumaKuma.
i stole Oscar's shades.
; Ink Heart. [its a novel. :D!]
; 7A's printed on that thin paper. xD
this is what i can do with my sis. :D!
slightly into Robert Pattinson, for now. :D